But we found out last wednesday that we are having our 2nd boy, and we couldn't be happier! I did feel a tiny bit sad when i saw up there on the ultrasound a little buldge between the legs. I thought how i wouldn't be able to dress my daughter up in little dresses, or do her hair, or have that bond mothers and daughters have, plan her wedding, watch her give birth. I defiantly felt a little sad. but honestly, i don't think i am made to raise a girl. the drama, the tears, the attitude, the exspenses, the teenage years ect ect.... I've always imagined raising a houseful of boys and i couldn't be more blessed. Yes, boy are tiring. But i feel girls are tiiiiiiiiiiiireing. I am getting anxious, finally, about having a little baby around. i've been scared to death about how i'm going to handle it, but tonight i just had this vision of holding a little baby again and i smiled. The excited to give birth is slowly coming to. i'm starting to gather up a good soundtrack and that always helps to look forward to. But with the whole moving thing up in the air i'm still pretty unsettled about giving birth because i'm not sure where exactly it will be happening. I think i just need to let it go and let whats meant to happen...happen. things have worked out thus far, so i guess i shouldn't stress. onto the the names...now thats stressful...
